Thursday, November 12, 2009

Planned Black Silver Project

I just received some beautiful deep red garnet beads for a necklace I'm planning using Thai Karen Hill Tribe fine [.999] and sterling [.925] black silver. I'm excited about this one, as I expect it to have a nice goth-y look. My plan is to use all black silver, but I may end up throwing in some "white" silver for a contrast if I think it's needed. It may be an absolute disaster, but in my head it looks awesome.

This is the first necklace in a very long time for which I'm ordering particular components vs. using what I already have on hand [which, truth be told, is quite a lot!]. The worst part is the waiting, especially since my materials are being shipped from Thailand and could take up to 4 weeks to get to me. I'm sure it will be worth it, though - I'm very partial to fine Hill Tribe silver, and the oxidized silver that the Karen Tribe produces has a beautiful blue tint in the light. I'm hoping to do my own experimenting with the oxidation process using Liver of Sulfur in the near future, and one of my goals will be to replicate that amazing blue sheen.

Starting Over - A Kind of Introduction

I seem to do the starting over thing a lot, which I guess is just the nature of having a serious bipolar disorder. The good news is that I'm down to one medication, Celexa, on which I seem to be stabilized. I'm beginning to care about things again, things people take for granted, things I used to care about - not the least of which is my jewelry designing and creating! After years of truly not seeing the point, my interest has been rejeuvenated and I'm working again. I've graduated from weekly therapy sessions and the possibility of being hospitalized to taking care of myself, leaving the house for things other than doctor appointments, and maintaining a kind of schedule. I walk, exercise, eat meals again, see family every once in a while, have goals, and finally have a creative outlet about which I care and for which I can actually summon the motivation and discipline.

I've learned from my disorder that change is one of the only true constants, and therefore I'd better just embrace it, work with it and be grateful for the good times. Right now, things are better for me than they have been in many years, and I am absolutely grateful. I am still having trouble socializing, and I'm quite slow to accomplish things, but my brain is working again and I do get things done. I also smile sometimes now, which I honestly thought I would never do again.

As I sit here, I have my two baby rats asleep on my lap, a cup of coffee in front of me, an order to ship, and some jewelry supplies on their way. Life is good. With a touch of luck and some head-work, I'll be posting again about my current design ideas and whatever else comes to mind.

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